Today was the first day in seven and a half years where I became officially unemployed and though we have all these plans in place for a future in France, it has still been an emotional day. Even though I knew this day was coming several months ago, I am still experiencing a sense of loss and rejection and I find this sad and slightly upsetting. I don’t want to be a ‘woe is me’ kind of person; I’m generally not I think.
So to ease my unrest I appear to have taken an unplanned ‘day off’. I’ve watched people achieve great success and attain their goals, with the support of thousands, if not millions of others, all urging them on, to reach their peak and strive for excellence. This in itself has been inspiring and emotional, a release if you will.
I’ve surfed the net and read about others pursuing their lives in the way they see fit, in balance and in peace; ready to take advice if requested and teach through example by just being.
And during this ‘day off’ I’ve come to realise that this day, this funny, sad, emotional, ordinary day, is just the start. It’s just the next step, at the beginning of another personal journey. Moving forwards, towards a life of simplicity, harmony and balance.
Today is my first proper step and I’m thankful for that. I wasn’t, I couldn’t see what the day was showing me, but I am now and I am truly grateful.
I knew this wasn’t going to be easy; that there would be a lot of hard work, but I hadn’t expected that acceptance was also going to be part of the journey. Hopefully now I’m further on the path towards that, towards a future of contentment and acceptance.